Unfiltered emotions : )

A NIGHT BEFORE LEAVING:

Packing stuffs , holding lot of cries in heart but can't show coz it would make me weak to leave a place where i grew up with so many emotions , two luggages is also not enough to carry what i am leaving behind the chaos, mumma's food , taking care of me when i used to have fever , baba making sure i am taing everything but my heart whispers i want u to come but no I think this is what life takes up with new rollercoaster but videocalling doesn't fill the gaps which is absent in this hostel room . 

THE ROLLERCOASTER

First changes that made me apart after a 18 years of my comfort was literally a rollercoaster of growth and it made a impact of life with a changes which make my stomach flutter with a lot of butterflies if nervous,excitement , and handling a emotions wast cue of my brain which does not supourt the what my emotions feel. Writing this also my eyes filed with lot of spell of water and whispers which is whipped by mouth only with a silent whisper to go back to comfort so that i cannot miss my mom's darting eyes when i don't like having but consuming it is making me feel homesick . Waking up early was never a part of my schedule which is now slowly taking part in my schedule , missing the masala chai which i use to make on sunday evening and will watch a reality show having a sip of chai and jokes and unlimited words with the tv my ma used which she is used to make sure that the other person from tv should listen to her , missing those banters, never thought this are the mising parts that i will crave.

LIFE SKILLS U LEARN 

The life skill which we learn is budgeting which i never knew i can also handle which baba made sure everytime . Smallest things also feels like big achievements . Maing bed , folding bedsheets, doing laundry , arranging clothes, dealing with a people also skill us which makes a purpose in life . Surviving studies with coffee, diet coke and late night snacks is a kind of a relationships which starts with no strings but casual but with it becomes like a habit .

GOODNESS 

These are the things which maybe not a big deal but it also makes a impact in growth of life . Feels like a first step which we are putting in a new life . i don't how i sum up this coz i am also new to this journey but i can't paln the journey with this so making sure that i grow with and surviving will make me write a lot of blog so till then i am summing up this story with continuous reading or intermission. 

sorry for delay coz busy with clg stuffs i know this blog carries a lot of genz words pla don't hate in the comment sections any critics if u want to can give me kike a mentor i won't mind i wll accept and uphold the things whivh i miss. So pls give a valid suggestion and lots of kissies and hugs with my writing. 

THANK YOU till then ...........